I graduated with a design degree a few (*ahem*) years ago from UNT. I used it for about 6 years and then never thought much about it again. I wasn't the best in my class. I mean--how did people remember which leg style was Queen Anne and which was Chippendale?
So, I moved on to sales and corporate training and then stay at home mama. The best was when I was a kids pastor and people asked me what seminary I went to--the shock on their faces when I said I didn't and explained my degree was priceless.
Fast forward to 2013 and the 1st season of Fixer Upper. Watching Chip and Jo was bittersweet for me because, when Brian and I were dating, our dream was to do exactly what they were doing. We wanted to flip houses--Brian handling all the building/structural parts and me designing the spaces. It started stirring something up inside me again that I didn't even know was there, but I kinda just ignored it most days--I had a job I loved that provided insurance for my family and paid the bills.
In 2015, Brian and I took a post anniversary trip and started dreaming again. Road trips do that for us. While we were in the beautiful Missouri outdoors (in a hotel room with no internet or tv), we started talking about "What if..." again.
I won't bore you with the details, but there were several things that happened in the space of those short few days that caused us to know the time was right for Brian to leave his retail mgmt. job and start his company back up again. I would stay on at my job until the end of the year and then I'd join him full time in the adventure of BR Construction.
Needless to say, we got comfortable again and it took another full year before we made the leap for me to quit my job. And I was only going to manage the office for Brian because I was going to pursue some other things.
Some of those things worked out (I have a part time job for a little non-profit that I LOVE, I was able to consult with NBCF and create a volunteer mgmt. process for them, I traveled a little as a meeting planner), and some didn't (I have gotten no further in writing my book).
The last month has opened up a new aspect to working with Brian. First of all, it's WITH and not FOR (which is how it started out). Secondly, he's making me use my design experience again.
At first, I was so very nervous. It's been years since I stayed on top of the latest color trends and knew what was the next hot thing in design. So I started looking on the internet and buying magazines and talking to realtor friends.
And you know what? I found that the designer in me is still there! I buried her under insecurity years ago, but as I talk color and shower tile and cedar vs brick with our clients, I've found that it's as exhilarating as that first time you hop on a bike and ride downhill with the wind.
So, I wonder, what's buried inside YOU? What have you pushed aside because it won't pay the bills or just seems impossible to pursue? You may have to wade deep through your insecurities to find it like me or you may know exactly what it is. But, no matter what, it's worth naming and claiming.